Saturday, June 10, 2006
the dark evil side
i'm not in the mood to post something decent tonight yet i feel the need to. i need to get my mind off things. one of the rare times that i would want to turn back the hands of time or i wish that there is such a thing as CTRL + Z in life. i normally don't regret things i do in my life. but this time around, i have to regret this. lessons learned are given. i just feel stupid to have to learn them the hard way. i just wish that THEY are more stupid than me.
i never felt so much hate for people the way i do now. i can't even shed tears. i don't know why. i am normally forgiving and would simply say that i would just pray for their souls. no, it's different this time. this time, i wish them all the bad luck and the most difficult hardships that they could ever encounter in their lives. i wish them and everyone around them sufferings that would teach the never to mess up with me. oh yes, i'll pray for them. i'll pray that they suffer their entire lives and die a slow death.
they should fret, i'm good at cursing... trust me, THIS would happen.
i don't know why i'm saying this. at this point, i just know that i want all the hatred and pain out of my system. i hope that when i sleep and wake up everything would be okay already. i got into this, i should learn to get out on my own. but i want this part of my life to end, i want to start over. (but the 2nd paragraph above, i really mean and want to happen. and i SWEAR that would happen!)
this is not me. enough of this. i don't want anymore of this.
i never felt so much hate for people the way i do now. i can't even shed tears. i don't know why. i am normally forgiving and would simply say that i would just pray for their souls. no, it's different this time. this time, i wish them all the bad luck and the most difficult hardships that they could ever encounter in their lives. i wish them and everyone around them sufferings that would teach the never to mess up with me. oh yes, i'll pray for them. i'll pray that they suffer their entire lives and die a slow death.
they should fret, i'm good at cursing... trust me, THIS would happen.
i don't know why i'm saying this. at this point, i just know that i want all the hatred and pain out of my system. i hope that when i sleep and wake up everything would be okay already. i got into this, i should learn to get out on my own. but i want this part of my life to end, i want to start over. (but the 2nd paragraph above, i really mean and want to happen. and i SWEAR that would happen!)
this is not me. enough of this. i don't want anymore of this.
# posted by ryan quan @ 11:36 PM 
