Thursday, February 21, 2008
not a good week
this week proved to be more exacting than i expected. my usual coping mechanisms to stress and emotional rollercoasters are not working. i really don't know why. last night i said to myself that this is just stress and that if i sleep it over, the following day would be a new beginning. i guess i was wrong.
this morning, i woke up to see a cloudy sky, went through my morning rituals, but still felt the same way i felt the past days -- alone.
it's hard to drag yourself to do something which you (supposedly) like (or liked). it's hard to deviate from something you always believed in. but it's harder to look okay in front of everyone when the truth is you're really not.
at this point, i don't want to explain anything. i don't owe anyone any. i miss friends who would just be there; no need for explanations, no need for words, just there.
i hope this ends... soon...
